Last week was a breaking point for me, I realized that in putting down the camera for 2 years (because the new camera was stressful and in moving to California I had/have no friends to take photos of) I cant necessarily consider myself a photographer, yet I get angry when my photography opinions aren't considered.
So I decided, you know what, I need to choose once and for all, is this something I want to do with my life. I need to decide, am I a photographer, or do I just like to snap pics every once and awhile.
Last week I setup a free photo session with a girl I had met a few months back, figured I need someone to take photos of who isn't my husband, and see how I feel about things.
it was supposed to happen today, but got postponed to next week.
but I'm excited, thankfully she is uber excited, but know's my situation so doesn't expect much other then a fun time out taking pics.
The only reason things really changed is because I got a little bit of the burden taken off me, my husband agreed to be a tag team with me and help me with the more technical photoshop side of things, because i know if i'm going to get serious I cant keep using picnik/picmonkey to touch up pics, and in reality, it stressed me the F*** out, especially since I still have to learn my camera. So with Him working on me with that side of things I can focus on just taking pics and figuring out my camera.
Which is huge for me! Because I'm not so good with the technical stuff.
So I started getting excited again about taking pictures.
Then another opportunity popped up, and I really couldn't help but step in.
My second cousin and his wife are having a baby, and she posted on FB that she was looking for a good photographer and asked if anyone knew of one so she could get pregnancy pics done.
now I've never done pregnancy pictures before, but I felt led to help out anyways, because in all honesty, I needed more experience under my belt, and when it comes to big things like having baby's, and wedding, I figure people want all the pictures they can get.
So I offered to do it for free.
At first I didn't get a respond back, and I told myself, who am I kidding, of course they don't want some amateur kid, who is just figuring stuff out taking pics of them.
but then!...yesterday I got a message back, and she said she talked to her husband and he is really excited about it and would love to set something up further along, maybe in April :)
Gosh did that just make my day... Michael and I are looking at getting thrown out of our apartment, and having to go back to living with my mother and stepfather (whole other story for a totally different time) and here I am by the grace of God, peaceful and excited with these opportunities on my doorstep!
If its God's will to send us a miracle so we can stay down in our apartment, or to move back up the mountain, either way I see that things are moving forward in other ways, and I really hope they continue to do so.
So right now I'm starting to work on gathering all my past pics together to make a portfolio (of course not all of them, just the good ones) and then at some point my husband is going to help me make a website. Yay!
and ya know, I don't want to candy coat it. We have been going through a lot of crap the last month, Michael getting laid off, looking at losing the apartment and maybe the car, not having the tickets to MI for our best friends weddings yet, its been uber stressful and hard, which were dealing with as best we can.
I just thought i would share my little ray of sunshine poking through the dark clouds with y'all :)
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